About Cissi

Swede living in London with my two hairy heroes maxing out on the glowsticks and the GTs. Also trying to grow some plants in my garden. So far not so good.

A letter to you

Lukas

Your world is easy and innocent. How I wish I could keep it so. How I wish that you never have to see the world for what it is, a place filled with scared and ignorant people and the actions made by those people.

The year you were born is not an easy year. Australia was on fire due to our neglect of the planet, a global pandemic swept the world and it closed down its borders rather than work together and in America black people were killed for simply being black.

And it’s only June.

But, there is light as well. The world is protesting. Rising up together to see change. I hope that by the time you can read this change has happened and we are on the other side.

Your father and I hope to raise you in love. We are lucky to be able to give you not only our love but that of grandparents, cousins, friends and family. But also chosen family. Family that we’ve found in our travels of the world. People that care about you as much as we do.

We hope that all of that love from people all over the world will give you the strength and courage to be that change. To lean on us and be part of what we hope the world to become.

It might seem daunting but I hope it will be so natural that’s it’s not even a question. That together well all make the world a better place.

Crossing fingers and toes

Cross your fingers for us. We have the last bid on the flat and are really, really hoping that we get it. It’s lovely and perfect and I can really see our family there and Lukas growing up. And hopefully even a sibling. Someone Lucky Luke can boss around like a champ.

He ate bolognese today. With his whole face. Like you should do. There is no questions about his love for food. Then he had banana and peanut butter. A whole 3 course meal.

The weather is ace. Sunny but not too warm. George is loving it. His soul is definitely European.

When I’m lucky I even get him to go on walks with me. Winning!

Little guy is sleeping on me but hopefully we can get out and walk around a bit. See town. All to take my mind off the flat. It’s nerve wrecking waiting around to see if we get it.

A waiting game

Good morning! We are sitting inside on a lovely day waiting for someone to install a laundry machine. And for the real estate agent to call back. And to get info about maternity pay from Sweden. And for George to get a job. And…well, we are waiting for a lot. Right now life is a bit of a waiting game. One step forward, three back. Everything takes forever.

However, we are lucky. Comparing to what is happening in the world we are so privileged. Not only white privilege but also the fact that we have parents that can help (thank you awesome parents), we have money saved up and an awesome little baby.

So not complaining, just slowly going about our lives hoping the world will grow into a better place.

On a happier note. Here is a video of little Lukas rolling around. He’s no speedy Gonzales but it’s happening.

Yesterday we went to the park for a bbq for George’s basketball team. Funny he is now coaching for the team I played for as a kid. Me, not exactly a talent…

Lukas was a big boy in shorts

Reading his book. 5 months on Thursday he’s a little boy now. He’s still my baby but he’s such a lovely little person. All smiles and love and cuddles. He still fall asleep so happily on our chests.

Speaking of my baby. George treated my to sushi on Mother’s Day.

And a lovely flower.

And my baby to almost sitting. So yes, can’t complain about anything in my amazing life with my little family. Love them to bits.

Date night!!!

Last week we had our date night. First time just the two of us since he was born. He had two amazing babysitters in Katta and Karin and we ran out the door for a night to ourselves.

Byyyyyyeeeeeeeee!!

I dressed up and got ready to wow my man once again. Feels like it’s mostly sweats these days.

Then we drank picklebacks. Because date night!!

Super excited on the bus. Nothing going to stop us now.

We started off at Lucy’s flower shop. A ‘speakeasy’ (nothings hidden for long in Sthlm) around Stureplan. Such a lovely little place.

We had many drinks and made friends with the people working. Classic night out.

After 4 cocktails we left the bar for dinner. Soooo bright outside. We felt like drunk kids around all the adults.

At Ciccios they remembered George. He was NOT sad about that.

We had dinner and didn’t talk about Lukas. Success. The plan was to be us for a night and we did splendidly.

By the end of the night (23😊) we were drunk and happy and in love. All you can want from a date night with your hunk of a man.

More of these please…

But never unhappy to get home to you little man.

Birthday party in the sun

Sunday. Sitting with my little man watching TV. He loves the tv. Well, it’s some strong genes there. Both from his daddy and mormor. Lots of love for the TV in our family.

Yesterday we went to Vilmas second birthday party. All the babies. Grown ups had bubbles and kids had soap bubbles. Perfect party.

Such a lovely day.

My baby went for the good stuff straight away.

Showing off his skills. And his awesome nerd outfit. The best clothes he has.

And he got his first ever party bag with swag. Loved it.

Happy birthday Vilma and thanks to her parents for the perfect Saturday in the sun.

Today we are seeing our favourite flat again hoping we can get it. But if not it was not meant to happen. We have learned the hard way that planning doesn’t always go as you want…

Happy Sunday to all of you from this little naughty baby.

Fun times

Ok, I’m back on the horse. Blogging and all that. And with that I mean putting up an endless stream of pics of my baby. Not sorry.

He rolled again this morning. Like a lil champ. It goes so quickly at the moment, he’s developing skills by the day. Almost like his mama.

Here pictures looking VERY clever on our night out. Yep, I did what I set out to do. Get drunk and behave like I’ve never heard of kids.

One could call me a roaring success.

Lucky me I have awesome friends that make sure that my baby free night don’t end until 4am when I stumble home to the birds singing.

Otherwise we are mostly just out and about enjoying Sthlm while looking at flats.

I lure George to leave the house and George gets some house porn. Perfect combo.

Today it’s all about the three of us until we are leaving him and it’s just about the two of us. Sorry lil man but mama and papa needs some fun times.

Hello!!

Hey guys. Been a while. Not that we’ve been busy. Really, we do literally nothing except for rolling around having awesome times.

It’s all warm and sunny today. 20 degrees. I’m wearing a dress. Summer, I’ve missed you. We went to Millesgården to meet with Maggie and Andrea and their babies. Hands up for Swedish maternity leave.

Baby and me looking cool as ice.

He’s so big now. Loving to stand up and sitting but mostly just hanging out with ALL the people.

Standing like a pro. I have a hunch he’s more like his dad given that my lazy ass didn’t start walking until I was 18 months. Do your mum a solid and keep immobile lil dude.

But the best thing is that laugh. I live for it. Well, I live for loads of stuff that but that’s a winner.

Tonight I’m seeing the girls and tomorrow George and me are having our first baby free night since he came. Thanks Katta and Karin for being all kinds of awesome.

Always fun with auntie Katta

And auntie Karin. He’ll be in safe hands. Maybe we can stay out like a week 🤔.

Anyway. Stockholm is all summery, like is falling into place and our little family is pretty happy.

I promise I’ll be better at the blog. Next time I’ll give you a ‘trying to buy a flat’ update. And a ‘I went out with the girls and got SMASHED update’ plus ‘the night without Lukas’ update. Sheeet, clearly lots to update y’all on.

Happy Luke and SW day

Our little boy is four months today. He’s (mostly) all smiles and laughter and he loves people and attention and the tv. It’s all about people for Lukas. I wonder who he’s got that from??

Both George and me have been struggling a bit over the last couple of days. Just a bit of everything. I think George will be better when he finds a job and I need to get my head around being back.

I love being here, don’t get me wrong, but there is a reason I left and a lot of old feelings and worries are starting to resurface being back here. I’m not sure how to handle them.

But, it’s mostly all fun and games. Exactly how Lukas feel about avocado 😂

He’s got some swag though. Don’t like to brag but he’s totally the coolest kid around. Fuck blue for boys, bring on all the colours.

Colour bombing the shit out of tricky days.

We also have such a crew of people around us. Had Ghobadi’s and baby bro and Sandra over for dinner on Friday.

Family and chosen family all around. Very lucky indeed.

And yesterday Sanna and me went to Lill-jansskogen. Like stepping into a Bauer fairytale world.

My somewhat sadness flew out the window for a while.

Not hating on this…

Today we are celebrating his 4 month day and Star Wars day by me going to Katta for a fika and then hopefully a nice dinner together tonight. George and me have been quite bad a focusing on us since he came. But I guess that’s what happens.

Have a lovely Monday from me and this pro cozer.

Get shit done

We are snoozing. Or, mini man is snoozing and I’m continuing my quest to get all the practical shit done. It’s a bit daunting when you are the only one who can do it.

So far this week I’ve gotten a home insurance, looked into pre school for Luke and doctor for me. I’ve also sorted weekly recipes (only way we eat well) and trying to figure out my pension. Plus finding a lawyer for my settlement. All the sexy stuff. And there is still so much on my list.

George is busy trying to find work. He had some good leads yesterday so hopefully he’ll be able to start working soon and us just not living three people on my savings and maternity. Doesn’t take us far.

This little guy is happily unaware of all the drama.

It’s all about playing with toys, reaching for stuff and cooing.

Such a little cutie.

Watching basketball with dad.

Yesterday we saw Alexandra and Chrisse. So lovely seeing them. I’m so glad to be back in Sweden with all my friends.

And my little family of course.

Today we are taking him to the doctors for vaccinations and tonight Filippa and me are having dinner while George is out. I’m not really feeling the party in corona times but nothing stops my man.

It’s you and me mini. Aceing this whole doing nothing sleeping thing.

It’s all about the fish man

Truly back in the deep end here in Sweden with parties and very social times. Loving it but also somewhat tired 😊. We are mondaying today and chilling at home. George is working and I’m on the sofa with Luke.

But, we gave baby L his first proper food. Banana time.

Loving it. He didn’t really get the spoon but loved the squeezy thing.

Big milestone little guy.

On Friday we had Alex, Olivia and Katta over for dinner. So nice to see them all. Alex is risk group with asthma so it was pretty chilled out.

Love entertaining people in our flat since it actually has a table.

On Saturday I was somewhat hungover (it’s happening kids, I’m truly becoming old) but we dressed Lucky Luke in his finest (gift from Alex and Olivia) and headed out to do town.

Look at my baby. He’s the happiest, smiliest little hero. And he’s started laughing over the last couple of days. Mainly at dads silly laugh.

In the evening we went to the Ghobadi’s. That’s Asrins parents who basically see George as their third son. And Lukas as the first grandson. Shiko stole him straight away and Lukas was so damn happy.

Baby L, getting all the attention. But he’s such a social little baby so he’s loving it.

On Sunday we went to Skansen with Jake the snake.

Lukas was somewhat interested in wolves and bears and moose.

But absolutely loved the fishes. I mean, it looks like a baby rave so totally feel him.

But it’s hard work seeing all of these totally new things so even heroes need to sleep.

Looked over by the badass men in his life. They’ve got you little dude.

But all in all he had an amazing day his first time at Skansen. Your parents will remember this one. Plus, he’s so damn big these days.

And to top off the day to perfection we met up with Tove, Fredrik and Ebba at Rosendal before finally heading home to the sofa.

With the happiest little boy in the pram home.

He’s so damn cute at the moment you just want to eat him up. But for now, it’s all about eating that banana up.